The title from my blog is based on a song that I sung from Beauty and the Beast when I left school. It was very poignant for me as leaving school was one of the biggest changes for me. Changes are an emotional thing, changes are such a difficult thing for many (including me) but they can also be exciting.
The last few months have been full of changes.
In November I left Uni, I had gotten quite ill and I wasn’t able to save myself from slipping further without leaving uni and getting help. So I left, it was a hard decision but it was important. I don’t think ever been as ill as when left . It’s taken some time but I can honestly say I’m in a much better place than I was before and dealing with things much better.
At the end of November my grandfather died. This was the first grandparent that I’d ever lost and I really didn’t know how to deal with it. I didn’t think I’d get through it but I have. It was a change I wasn’t really prepared for but I made it.
I started a new job and left that job. This was a big decision for me but I didn’t leave uni to then go into a stressful job where I couldn’t look after myself.
Most recent change is to do with TTC ,somewhere that I have been a part of for almost three years.
The wonderful Joss has left. And she may not know it but I probably wouldn’t have got through most of these changes in my life without her.
Joss has taught me that it’s okay to look after myself and give myself a break. She supported me when my grandfather died. She supported me when I left uni. She taught me to believe in myself. She made me realise that I was strong enough to deal with these changes.
So thank you Joss for helping me get through changes. And thank you for teaching me that it’s okay to look after myself.
Changes for me are still a scary thing. But I know I will always get through them like I have so far.
“Life is about change. Sometimes it’s painful. Sometimes it’s beautiful. But most of the time, it’s both.”
Abbie xx
There's Been a Change in Me 